Intro:
I’m a survivor of Child Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Emotional Abuse, and Neglect. This is a live journal that contains some graphic material on Child Abuse and opinions. I’m also in a 12 Step Program that for The Grace of God I would have never been able to fully heal myself if it was not for the program of recovery.
In the duration of my lifetime I have had so many people tell me that I should write a book. Actually it is in the process, but in the meantime if I can help just one person I would be completely satisfied.
Abuse effects all aspects of our lives whether we want to admit it or not.
This is my story and my journey in confronting my past for the sake of my sanity and working the 12 Steps into my life so that I’m able to live in some Peace and Serenity today.
As a child I grew up not knowing my father. My mother was married 8 time’s and I never knew what stability was. I have 3 other siblings who have gone through the same abuse and it has never been dealt with. The abuse started from a very young age all the way up into my mid 20’s. Growing up being raped and molested over and over again by step dads, boyfriends. family members, acquaintances and so called friends can effect any persons life, but when choosing to deal with it is a whole new journey and a whole new life. I learned at an early age not to speak about it. My mother never acknowledged the abuse or any of her mistakes and still refuses to from this day forward so the only person I trusted in my life as a child would not listen.
For many years all of the abuse just became a way of life for me. I accepted it and moved on as if to think it would never effected my life. I was wrong, very wrong. As I learned to deal with my recovery I learned to deal with my past and I learned to love myself and become a better person because of it.
I dont live in denial today, but acceptance. I share my story with others who are struggling, looking for hope that maybe someone does care or that someone out there does understand.
This is My Story, My Journey, My Hope, and My Life today.
♥ You are not alone ♥
I am proof!
turkeyboneheaven 
Thank you for visiting my site and following. You have chosen a courageous path and one that will undoubtedly give many people hope.
Blessings,
Pnissila
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Thank You Pnissila.
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It takes honesty to heal. Keep up the good work. I had a therapist who said to me, “You are no longer a survivor but a thriver.” I took those words to heart and I thrive. Thrive on 🙂
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Thank you for finding and following my blog. As you probably read in my last post, i was the target of someone’s sick ‘joke’ who was very offensive towards me because of writing about my experience of abuse and rape. I am in therapy currently and am working very hard on no longer being a victim but being a survivor. It’s hard going but your blog has given me hope and i have decided to ‘follow’ you. Many thanks x.
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Thank You Ellie. I will pray for you and the strength to stand tall with your head held high. Lots of hugs xxx TBH
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tbh, thank you for your kind follow. I regret that I have had to refrain from further mutual follows, due to the large number of WordPress email alerts that I was getting every day.
Always at themirrorbooks@gmail.com if you want to chat about something or flag one of your posts.
I understand the survivor v. victim thing. Although often not welcome, it’s a choice we are sometimes forced to make.
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Good to hear from you again…Thanks for the likes of: New Release, Generation of Deluded Narcissists, Anthology of Short Stories and The Man and The Stream…On May 14 I’ll celebrate 36 years of continuous sobriety; God, AA and continuous support…saailer
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Dave, I wanted to congratulate you on your book of stories. Thanks for coming back by. I love what you share, you are honest and I love that. Thanks TBH
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Thanks for the follow – glad to have visited your site. Rest assure your story is helping others. And this is why we write! Blessings!
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Wow, you are amazing. Thank you so much for spreading awareness and hope!
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Sorry you too have been there. Thank you so much for following my blog 🙂
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Thank you for following Wellspring of Life, TBH. It is wonderful to read of your courage and unwillingness to be lifelong defined by what happened to you. God bless your healing journey.
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Thank You Nancy. It is always nice to be encouraged. TBH
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Hello turkeyboneheaven, thank you for your response and for following my blog. I look forward to following your blog. Very best wishes, Phil Stanfield
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Thanks for following my blog, I look forward to getting to know you more as I read yours.
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I’m so grateful you found and are following my blog. Lots of heavy stuff to be unpacked! Thanks for sharing your experience and your hope. I look forward to hearing more about your journey, and am happy to know you’ll be seeing some of mine.
Peace,
Elouise
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thank you for following my blog. I am in the midst of healing…..i look forward to your posts.
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After reading your “about” page, I so admire you, your strength and acceptance, and your vision to share with others the things you have gone through and the beautiful person you have remained through it all. Blessings to you.
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My history is not of abuse but of many years of depression and one of my main reasons for writing is also to tell those going through it now.. that they are not alone.. as you indicated also… Diane
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I have nominated you for the Liebster Award. If you would like to accept it, please go to my blog site for details. You are an inspiration and thank you for your advice and support, Ellie x
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Ellie, Thank You for the nomination. I’m reading yoour blog and will soon follow through with the instructions.
Many Hugs TBH
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When In replying to your nomination I neglected to say thank you…Keep carrying the message, the planted seed may just take root…
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Thank You David. I’m Blessed to call you my friend. 🙂
TBH
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God bless you. Don’t ever expect those that do wrong to ever admit it. It is very rare that those who choose to be blind “see the light” and repent from their ways. Just know as an adult you don’t have to accept anything or anyone that is not the best for you. That is not how any of us are supposed to live. I had to avoid most of my dysfunctional family since I was 20 and I seldom look back. I look up.
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It’s great to see a survivor posting their thoughts and reaching out to others. This is exactly what I was talking about in my most recent post.
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You stopped by my blog, so I’m checking out yours … and so glad I did! I grew up in a home that didn’t acknowledge the abuse (incest) until all us girls were well into adulthood. Growing up in that environment of denial led me to search for acceptance in all the wrong ways/places, so I completely understand your journey. It brings joy to my heart to read your declaration that you are no longer a victim. More than moving from victim to survivor, I pray God continue to transform you from vict-im to VICT-OR!! In Him, you are an overcomer! Go live your life victoriously! Blessings, Jenny
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Jenny, Thank You so much for the encouragement. Our stories sound almost the same and I can relate to the denial and searching for acceptance in the wrong places. I’m finding so many people that were hurt just like us on these blogs and hope to share my hope as you do.
*hugs*
TBH
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Honestly, I’m surprised you survived, and with any semblance of sanity. It makes me feel very lucky that I had to deal only with verbal abuse, lack of any kind of love, and a few beatings with a belt strap.
I should clarify that I did have the love of Jesus with me. I would go to the woods and talk to him. He helped me get through my childhood.
Someday I might do a blog about it, but I’m not ready to yet. I’ve mentioned some of the things, but there’s a lot I’m not willing to share.
In my first novel, I used abuse as the medical problem. I mentioned that to a group and one guy chimed up that there was nothing medical in the book. Both the mom and her daughter were being abused by the boyfriend. He proved my point about abuse–a lot times it’s unseen by others.
Thank you for deciding to follow my blog. I hope you will continue to find other articles of interest.
I will keep you in my prayers.
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Sorry to hear about everything you gone through.
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Hey!
Thanks for following my blog. This journey is long, but there is an end in sight. Keep writing through it. Thinking of you.
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I must apologize for my tardy response. I see that you came to my house and left a like.
I thank you for that.
Marvelous much.
Sincerely.
Your site interests me.
I am, too, an alcoholic, just between recoveries.
Been there.
Will be again.
If you read much of my postings, you will see and recognize, a juicer.
That is just me
Not being flippant here. Just relating to you.
The problem I would probably have with programs like AA is that I am an Atheist.
This does not make me a bad person; it just makes me an atheist.
Stopping now…you recognize the symptoms.
Thank you for your blog, and thank you for visiting mine.
We will meet again.
Cheers,
Lance
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Thank You Lance for your honesty. There is no problem with being an Atheist. I have seen many recover through the 12 step program. You are who you are and this is the best part of AA. You can believe in whatever you want. Our ONLY requirement is to have the desire to want to stop drinking.
TBH
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Thank you so much for following me! I had to stop by and check out your blog, and I’m so grateful that I did. You are truly a light for those lost in the darkness. I am thankful to have found such a strong, inspirational Soul such as you! Keep being your cosmically beautiful Self, and know that you are loved!!!
Namaste! -Sarah
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thank you for your courage & honesty. bless you & your words.
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[…] you also to the tremendous Turkeyboneheaven, for nominating me for the Brave Heart Award. Her blog about her story and journey out of abuse and […]
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Thank you for the follow of Aspiring to Inspire. I am so happy you took the time to stop by. I hope that as you journey you might find encouragement through the words. Thank you also for sharing your journey – it is a courageous thing to do because even now abuse continues to be shrouded in darkness. Thank you.
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