I’m a survivor of Child Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Emotional Abuse, and Neglect. This is a live journal that contains some graphic material on Child Abuse and opinions. I’m also in a 12 Step Program that for The Grace of God I would have never been able to fully heal myself if it was not for the program of recovery.
In the duration of my lifetime I have had so many people tell me that I should write a book. Actually it is in the process, but in the meantime if I can help just one person I would be completely satisfied.
Abuse effects all aspects of our lives whether we want to admit it or not.
This is my story and my journey in confronting my past for the sake of my sanity and working the 12 Steps into my life so that I’m able to live in some Peace and Serenity today.
As a child I grew up not knowing my father. My mother was married 8 time’s and I never knew what stability was. I have 3 other siblings who have gone through the same abuse and it has never been dealt with. The abuse started from a very young age all the way up into my mid 20’s. Growing up being raped and molested over and over again by step dads, boyfriends. family members, acquaintances and so called friends can effect any persons life, but when choosing to deal with it is a whole new journey and a whole new life. I learned at an early age not to speak about it. My mother never acknowledged the abuse or any of her mistakes and still refuses to from this day forward so the only person I trusted in my life as a child would not listen.
For many years all of the abuse just became a way of life for me. I accepted it and moved on as if to think it would never effected my life. I was wrong, very wrong. As I learned to deal with my recovery I learned to deal with my past and I learned to love myself and become a better person because of it.
I dont live in denial today, but acceptance. I share my story with others who are struggling, looking for hope that maybe someone does care or that someone out there does understand.
This is My Story, My Journey, My Hope, and My Life today.
♥ You are not alone ♥
I am proof!