No Longer Afraid


For years I lived my life being afraid. Afraid of saying the truth, afraid of being me. I have been receiving threatening messages from family members because of my blog. Well I’m no longer afraid.

I have boundaries and I respect myself enough to not fall into the chaos and the insanity that others bring from not being in control. Somehow, someway my sick family has found my blog and now wants to confront me on my past and what I should and should not be doing. Well I’m an adult and I will share what I want to share about MY LIFE and MY PAST struggles and I have every right to do so. Now if it bothers you that bad then DONT READ IT! AND yes, It’s that easy.

For them it is all about control, it seems they have no control and so they want to try and force me to continue living a sick miserable life as they still do. Well my choice is to live in Peace and Serenity today.

Sorry, It’s not gonna happen. I’m Happy, Joyous and Free today. Know one and I mean Know one will step into my life and tell me what to do. It has been years that I have distanced myself from these people and they still want to try and control my every action. I have been living in fear afraid to speak my mind and I refuse to live in fear today. If someone does not like what I write they don’t have to read it. Its that easy. Move on and get a life and stay out of mine. There is a reason for the distance and it’s because I don’t want to be associated with any of you.

Now this does not mean I don’t have a past and I have not struggled , it just means I have dealt with my past and I have forgiven myself such as God has forgiven me and that is what makes me who I am today.

But let me say this…By my family telling me what I have done does not fix me, I’m the one who haves to do the work on me and fix myself, trying to tell me what to do does not fix anything, it just proves to me that they are still sick and confirms that I’m making the right decisions in my life today. Just that easy. I have done a lot of work on myself and I’m in a peaceful place today and because they are not does not mean I should suffer. So with all this rambling I just want to say, I’m No Longer Afraid. No more trying to bully me into anything.

  • Get Your Own House In Order and focus on yourself.
  • Keep doing what your doing and keep getting what you got.
  • You cant control anyone or anything.
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    2 thoughts on “No Longer Afraid

    1. jamilynaz says:

      I am a survivor of sexual and emotional abuse at the hands of family members as well, and I have mentioned some of it my blog. I have only been blogging for a couple of months, and have been concerned that my family will see it and have something to say about it. But, I continue blogging and writing the truth. If they do see it, and get upset, I will have to deal with it then. I’m finished with being bullied.

      I really appreciate what you have to say and am grateful for your posts. They give me the strength to continue on myself.

      Thanks again,
      ~Jami

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    2. ildestino1 says:

      and i ‘fear’ the same regarding my family but i refuse to stop writing!

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